Hello there. My name is Kimi and I am twenty-two years old. I have the mind of an eleven year old girl with an IQ of about 74. I love to write, as you can see. It is the best way for me to express myself and probably the only way I can express myself. I am interested in the paranormal, anime, kingdom hearts, music, Miyazaki's Films and Alice in Wonderland.
I am not a normal person. I still sleep with the light on and I also sleep with my Axel plushie and a soft silky cotton scarf that I call, 'scarfy' or my scarfy. I cannot sleep without these things nor can I go anywhere without having them with me. They provide me with comfort during times of distress and panic.
I do have a boyfriend that I love very much and he loves me for who I am. He is my soul mate and without him my world would probably come crashing down. I have friends who understand me also and know what it is like to be the way I am. I am not a perfect person and yet I obsess over being perfect in every way. I am mostly trying to be perfect in what I write and the things I do just to please my parents.
I can't cook, I can't hold a job and I can't go to college. This is all because of emotional abuse as a child in elementary school. I have a dark past when it comes to schools and its something I can never forget. There are so many things that people don't want to understand about me. They see me as a normally functioning person and even times that they forget I am disabled or I have special needs.
I struggle with life and being understood because people always try to do what is best or just don't want to do anything. I have never had therapy as a child, except for Speech therapy. I didn't start talking until I was four years old and after I still had problems with speech and being able to communicate. I have trouble with filtering out background noise when someone is talking to me and I have poor listening skills. Yet I have big sensory issues with loud sounds that are unexpected, as well as unexpected touch.
I am not very good with social interaction and there are times when I won't say anything at all. I am usually the one in the shadows while everyone is having a good time being themselves. I fight with my mom a lot because there are times when she forgets that I am autistic.
My only wish is for someone to be able to help me, to see me for the daily struggles inside. I know they say life is never easy but life is never easy for me either... its like living in hell sometimes and not even being able to escape.
I am diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome, Auditory Processing Disorder, ADHD and Severe Anxiety. The hardest thing in life is being misunderstood and its still something I hate having to face.